Saturday, December 27, 2008

Anggun's Concert - Con't from the previous entry...





Anggun's Concert - Con't from the previous entry...






It was a long time for continuing this entry since I was stucked with all the works... Now is the pay back time...

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Tak Perlu Menjadi INSAN TERSAYANG Untuk Berbakti

Why this title came across my mind to be the heading sedangkan banyak lagi title lain yang boleh dijadikan heading. Entahlah, may be my emotional made me feel that way…

Mama told me about my late grandfather’s house yang dah setahun lebih tak berbayar. Actually, that house has been used by my uncle + aunty for refinancing for a few times and now masing2 buat bodoh, tak bayar… what happened was… ayah’s house is in the compound of my late grandfather’s house and of course, secara tak langsung will be affected.

Ayah is a very good son-in-law. Tak pernah ambil hati sikitpun even dulu dia bukanlah menantu kesayangan. Aku ingat lagi, masa dulu Ayah taklah sesenang sekarang. Ayah worked hard to send us to school, to give a comfortable life for us. Ayah buat macam2 kerja just to make sure kami adik-beradik dapat apa yang sepatutnya kami dapat.

Aku tak pernah lupa yang my grandmother (I called her Mak Wan) and my aunty (of course yang dia nie anak kesayangan Mak Wan) pernah ejek Ayah… They were comparing Ayah with my aunty’s husband yang kerja kat bank (I believed yang he just officer biasa jerk at bank tinggal of course as a bank staff dia dapat a few facilities, loan, etc…)

Bila Arwah Atuk (my mum’s father) sakit kaki a few years before he passed away, Ayahlah orang yang bawak Arwah Atuk pergi hospital for check-up. Tak cukup dengan tu, Ayah bawak Arwah Atuk pergi berubat cara tradisional bila dia dah give-up dengan hospital. Ayah tak pernah mengeluh sikit pun sebab tu. And Ayah tak pernah kisah bila dia kena selalu ambil cuti.

Ayah bukanlah menantu kesayangan Mak Wan… Tapi Ayah tak pernah ambil hati sebab pada Ayah, as a son-in-law, tak salah menolong. Arwah Atuk cukup baik dengan Ayah. Bila Arwah Atuk mintak tolong Ayah bawakkan dia pergi berubat, Arwah Atuk akan datang rumah kami seorang sebab Mak Wan too busy dengan anak kesayangan dia…

Bila Arwah Atuk dah makin tak sihat, Arwah Atuk mintak Ayah & Mama jaga dia. Tapi, Arwah Atuk nak duduk dekat rumah dia sendiri. Atuk offered Ayah untuk buat rumah dekat kawasan rumah dia (it is a terrace house – corner lot with a very big compound). Ayah tak banyak cerita, kesiankan Atuk and Ayah buat renovation kat rumah Atuk & sambung terus jadi 2 rumah, all the cost on his hand. Sepatah pun Ayah tak pernah bersuara “sebab saya dah invest buat rumah kat sini, saya nak hak rumah nie.” NEVER!!! Itu bukan Ayah.

You guys nak tahu Ayah jenis orang yang macam mana? Sebatang pen kat office pun dia tak pernah bawak balik for his own good sepanjang dia kerja dekat MAS. And Ayah dah kerja dengan MAS lebih 40 tahun and now under contract basis. Dah dekat 5 kali dah MAS sambung contract Ayah lepas Ayah retired.

Masa Atuk sakit, my aunty + uncle mintak Atuk geran rumah for them to do refinancing. They got a lot of money that time. Belief me, the amount that the bank value the house was more than RM 300K masa tahun 1999 / 2000. You guys imagine sendiri how much money they got and how much they are supposed to pay the bank + the interest.

Now is the end of 2008. Atuk’s house + Ayah’s house dah jadi macam welfare house. One of my mum’s sister staying @ Ayah’s house and going to move to her own house soon. Mak Wan is staying @ Ayah’s house as well. Atuk’s house? My mum’s eldest brother staying there for FREE.

Ayah tak pernah bersungut. My aunty yang duduk kat rumah Ayah pun, Ayah tak pernah mintak duit sewa. Tinggal baru nie lepas diaorang dapat duit EPF, they paid some amount to my dad as THANK YOU. Ayah really appreciated that. They planned to buy Ayah’s house at the first place tapi lepas tu tak jadi bila dapat tahu yang duit bank tak berbayar lebih setahun.

Don’t tell me both my mum’s adik2 tu tak tahu yang they have to pay the bank loan. They knew of course tapi pada diaorang, kisah apa… bukan rumah depa. Rumah tu rumah Atuk and Atuk dah tak ada. Mak Wan tak kisah sebab diaorang anak kesayangan. Rumah Ayah?

I would like to drag your attention to a tragedy happened to me back on 2002 – 2001. I just started to build my career and one of my uncle (Mak Wan’s beloved son of course) dah mula menyusahkan hidup aku and itulah yang membuatkan sampai hari nie, aku tak bertegur sapa langsung dengan dia even masa hari raya.

My mum’s youngest brother came to me for help. Mintak tolong jadi ‘gerentor’ sebab dia nak beli kereta, it was a second hand car. Ayah pesan pada aku, tak salah tolong dia. I helped them and what a surprised, rupanya he bought a car using his friend’s name. His name was blacklisted.

2 months after that, I planned to buy a car and guess what? Nama aku tak lepas. Why? He never pay even a single cent for the car. Starting from that, aku start masam muka. Ayah yang pujuk dia supaya bayar duit tu. I thought semuanya dah ok sampailah satu hari, masa tu dalam a few months before my wedding… I got a call from a bank mengatakan yang kereta my uncle dah banyak bulan tak bayar.

Aku hilang sabar, I decided to find where was my uncle that time and I never got a help from Mak Wan. Mak Wan told me “siapa suruh bodoh pergi sign”… I was very upset when a grandmother mentioned that to me… Aku nekad, aku jadi private investigation to know where was my uncle’s latest house masa tu… Finally, I gave the address to the bank and paid them RM 600 for them to tarik kereta.

Aku dapat berbakul-bakul sumpah seranah dari my uncle’s wife masa tu… Kisah apa aku, nasib baik aku tak upah orang puluk diaorg sekali. I thought the incident dah selesai, rupanya tak. Lepas kereta tu dilelong, the balance yang my uncle janji nak bayar, tak dibayar pun. My uncle’s friend banyak kali mintak aku tolong dia sebab dia nak beli rumah tak dapat…

One day, I received a lawyer’s letter regarding the car. Aku mulalah mengamuk balik. After negotiating, I paid to the bank for the balance of the amount, every month RM 400 sampailah semuanya selesai… Ayah helped me a lot selain tolong selesaikan half of the amount.

Aku hanya mula buat bank loan lepas semua hutang my uncle tu selesai. I believed, I have a good reason for ignoring him and his family until now. They were not in any of my invitation list for any event, even my wedding.

Orang2 macam nie lah yang sebenarnya buat hidup orang lain merna… percayalah, kerana darah daging sendirilah rasa sakit itu lebih terasa.

Orang-orang di atas bukanlah pertama kali buat perangai macam nie. I told my mum, bukan aku tak mahu tolong untuk bayarkan rumah Ayah & Arwah Atuk tu, tapi kalau aku bayar, apa yang aku dapat. Aku dah cukup serik bayarkan hutang orang...

Kesian Mama, kesian Ayah. Puas aku fikir apa yang aku boleh buat untuk tolong diaorg. Apalagi, Ayah built the house bukan masa Ayah senang macam sekarang. At the end I told my mum apa yang aku akan buat untuk diaorg… I went to the bank, asking when the house to be LELONG. I made and verbal agreement with the officer in-charge, asked them to let me know when the house going to be LELONG. I will buy the house and I don’t want any of them (Mak Wan, aunties & uncles) to know who is the owner. I will return back the house to Ayah because Ayah has the right to the house.

Kalau ditanya ke mana Mak Wan akan tinggal lepas nie, I have asked Mama untuk ajak Mak Wan tinggal dengan Mama & Ayah. Kalau ditanya ke mana orang2 lain akan tinggal (since that house so called welfare house), aku tak tahu… Masing-masing dah besar, sendiri mau ingat la…

That where the long title came across my mind for the heading for today’s entry…

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

What Happen To My AZAM 2008?

It has been sometimes for me not to write anything here… Really busy and I feel I cant cope with the schedule most of the time… December almost coming to the end and January is waving… New spirit? Of course!!! I want to be a better person, a better Herleena and also a better Eleen…

Selalunya bila end of the year, kita akan siapkan a list of AZAM on what we want to achieve next year. But, berapa ramai antara kita yang make a comparison list, have we achieved the earlier AZAM? Lets do it now…

Azam 2008 (you can refer to 2008 January write-up)

1. To stabilize Archiforce Invent & Gaia Arts & Gifts.
2. To make a come back for Anggun Maya.
3. To resign from _ _ _ _ (tak lama lagi, insyaallah)
4. To convert Archiforce Invent as a Sdn Bhd company.
5. To spend time with my family @ vacation.
6. To make sure our honeymoon jadi kenyataan (inilah yang tiap2 tahun, tiap2 bulan dicakapkan, tapi tak pernahnya jadi!!!)
7. To get back my old figure & body (nak kurus lah… )
8. To save more and more money…
9. To open an account in Tabung Haji.
10. Lagi satu… Nak menambahkan harta (insyaallah)


I’m planning to bring the kids to experience the snow during the winter time end of 2008. Insyaallah, kalau ada rezeki… Selama nie, kalau pergi (baik Azimin, baik aku) semuanya sebab kerja… Tapi, kalau dapat pergi London masa Summer Sale pun, best gak!!!

My AZAM 2009 is more on improvement version of my AZAM 2008. Lets do some analyzing of my previous azam.

1. To stabilize Archiforce Invent & Gaia Arts & Gifts. = Its improving and currently we produced more design of t-shirts. After the Langkawi Geopark version, the latest versions are Obama (KL & Langkawi version), Breath, Malay House and Malaysia Map. We are expanding the business into X-Site, an art stationery shop + café @ UKM, nearby the Tun Sri Lanang Library.

2. To make a come back for Anggun Maya. = Its need a lot of time to improve. My mum & me are working on it and we are trying to create new business; such as women accessories…

3. To resign from _ _ _ _ (tak lama lagi, insyaallah) = DONE

4. To convert Archiforce Invent as a Sdn Bhd company. = Insyaallah, we are in process of ‘spin of company’ with UKM. It’s a long process, hopefully its going on smoothly.

5. To spend time with my family @ vacation. = Its were not a long vacation, just a break. Tak ada masa… But, I’m still planning for a long vacation.

6. To make sure our honeymoon jadi kenyataan (inilah yang tiap2 tahun, tiap2 bulan dicakapkan, tapi tak pernahnya jadi!!!) = For 2008, DONE. We spent a weekend at Hilton Sentral, and some trip to Kedah, etc…

7. To get back my old figure & body (nak kurus lah… ) = OK la… Better than earlier but I still need to work hard on it. To maintain yang susah… pantang tengok nasi lemak espy yg my mum buat…

8. To save more and more money… = Still saving…

9. To open an account in Tabung Haji. = Will do it by 2009, promise

10. Lagi satu… Nak menambahkan harta (insyaallah) = Insyaallah, dengan izinNya

I’m planning to bring the kids to experience the snow during the winter time end of 2008. Insyaallah, kalau ada rezeki… Selama nie, kalau pergi (baik Azimin, baik aku) semuanya sebab kerja… Tapi, kalau dapat pergi London masa Summer Sale pun, best gak!!! = Not achievable for 2008. Budget lari….

Hopefully, for 2009, it will be better...

Monday, December 8, 2008

How I Support Malaysian Entertainment Industry?

How? Thats the question. Most of the people selalu kata yang Malaysia entertainment industry 'no class' and i'm very sure most of us terlalu mengagung-agungkan muzik & filem luar. i do understand how do you guys feel about that but in the same time i belief, the people in the entertainment industry working so hard to upgrade it. We have to understand that our industry are still lacking in a lot of areas. the technology, the people mind and the support from local.

Malaysia has created numbers of creaticve people. They are not only the entainteners, but also a CREATOR to create a new breath in the industry. Percubaan berani KRU walaupun masih banyak kekurangan berbanding Hollywood tetap layak diberi pujian sebab kalau tidak mereka, tiada siapa yang berani mencuba.

Hasil creative berani dari Faizal Tahir mula membuka mata our local people to create more space for him. The first trial from Aizat shows his capability even he was not listed under the AF5 finalist. Elyana made a brave move when she diverted from a 'lemah longlai' music (in her 1st album) to funky & fast music then after realising not so many people willing to try that. Most of the singers always take a safe move and not willing to take a risk.

The willingness of Maya Karin, to change from her normal character (anggun women, even an anggun pontianak)to a 'budak jalanan' in Anak Halal. The combination with Farid Kamil memang menjadi. And I can see itu lakonan Maya Karin yang jujur even she did mentioned it in media, dia tak biasa cakap bahasa pasar macam yg dia lakonkan dalam Anak Halal. Sometimes, we dont need to be 'in' to be sincered...

Aku mengaku, aku tak pernah pergi tengok wayang cerita melayu sebab kebanyakannya, aku tengok kat astro. lepas a few months main kat wayang, keluarlah kat astro.

percaya tak yang last yang i went to Anugerah Juara Lagu last year? the intention was to see Faizal Tahir live but tak kesampaian. this year, again Faizal Tahir mengulangi sejarah AJLnya when 2 of his songs - Coba and Sampai Syurga were listed as a finalist. I will try my best to get tickets for that function.

As a conclusion, I always give a chance to new people to prove their talents sebab bukan semua orang akan berjaya dengan SEKALI PERCUBAAN. Kalau diikutkan, aku sendiri hanya berjaya lepas beberapa percubaan... Sebab tu aku percaya, semua orang layak diberi peluang....

It Has Been A Long Paused!!!

Yes, it has been a long paused for me for not updating my blog. even, Anggun's Concert photos pun tak sempat nak update lagi. Too busy with work and I have received a verbal warning from Azimin for coming back late very often last month. Its all because of the Establishment Audit 2008, conducted by Ernst & Young for MOHE. Its my responsibility to ensure my department is up to date, a lot of things to do and in the same time helping the Academic's dept...

Anggun's school holidays!!! Arghhhh!!! I still oweing her to bring her somewhere... Not decided yet but rasanya, I'm not planning for a long journey trip. May be just a night or two at any hotel nearby. Anggun's intention just to mandi pool and staying in hotel. tu jer... lagipun, my parents brought her to Langkawi and Penang. Azimin just canme back from T'ganu for his research and I'm the obnly one who stucked here due to my tight schedules.

Dec 2008, time to clearing my annual leaves. i took quite a number of leaves, the same goes to my staff. Thus, i really need to hv an arrangement for the operation. Arghh!!! Really, i need a break. Decided to stay somewhere in KL for a night or two with Anggun & Alam... Not sure where but i already have a list in my mind!!!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Anggun's Concert on 16th Nov 2008






Nur Iman Educare Concert.

Date: 16th Nov 2008, Sunday
Time: 2.00pm
Venue: Auditorium Ahmad Noordin, Akademi Audit Negara

Special Notes:

1. Anggun took part in a few shows:

i. choir + dikir barat
ii. Ago-go dance
iii. Chinese dance

2. Anggun received a 'Tempat Pertama Pelajar Cemerlang - Al-Iman Class (5th year old)

3. Abid (Anggun's cousin) received a 'Tempat Ketiga Pelajar Cemerlang - Al-Amin Clas (4th year old)

4. WE, (Azimin, me & Khairi - Azimin's brother in-law which also Abid's father) were not taken our lunch at all and were starving during the concert.

5. Alam was so busy doing his DUTY during the concert and end-up sleeping with his ATUK at the last row of the auditorium.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Its For U - EEJAY!!!


Eejay, this is esp for you... I know its so small for your eyes but, this is the best that I can do for you

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

My Spirit + My Self

Quite busy thispast few weeks. All the open houses made me SICK!!! Really, all the foods, rendang, nasi himpuit, lontong, sate, lemang, etc… I’m putting on weight.

A few friends came for a visit. Thanks guys!!! I feel very close to my x-schoolmate lately. Thanks to Facebook, YM, Friendster… Technologies really cherish my friendship.

In this beautiful age, I still want to be closed with my friends esp my schoolmates. For me, each age has its own beautiful moment.

When I was in school, I was not in ‘A student’ category. B pun bukan!!! Being in boarding school, science school some more memang betul2 buatkan aku rasa terkebelakang. I’m not a science person! Ada makhluk Tuhan yang ketawa bagai nak rak bila tahu yang I love to write. Kononnya, itu perkara ‘BODOH’.

Percaya atau tidak, I has been humiliated by someone who used to be closed with me when I was in school. With 1 sentence, dah cukup untuk buat aku rasa… it’s really HURT and no words to describe how hurt I was. “AKU TAK MAHU ORANG KATA AKU BERCINTA DENGAN BUDAK BODOH”.

It’s not easy to go through all the tough moments. Dek kerana tertekan, my study really dropped.

Dalam masa aku tergapai-gapai, I was so lucky sebab ada insan-insan yang tetap menyokong aku. Friends who always be by my side, TQ. My honour to Cikgu Jaafar Kassim. He was the one who TRUST me + my capability. Dialah yang selalu bagi semangat pada aku to improve my life.

SPM was not an everything for me. But it was something that made me strong enough to make my own decision. Aku yakinkan ayah, aku mahu jalan yang berbeza.

I’m correct. SPM is not an everything. Dengan SPM aku yang cukup2 makan for 1st grade, aku masih mampu bernafas dan mempertaruhkan kehidupan hingga ke hari ini.

Why I said so? I met my friends during raya and it’s really make me bersyukur pada Tuhan kerana menduga aku lebih awal.

The friends that I met were among the best students in school. They went to UK right after SPM, sponsored by a corporate companies. They no need to went through the part-time jobs, rasa takut menunggu SPM result, kena bebel with parents, etc.

What are they doing now? 1 of them came back from UK half way of an engineering course @ Cambridge. Another one, hampir2 nanau (too stress – gila – it’s the correct words? I believe you guys know what I mean) after spending 5 years + of study in medicine.

What are they doing now? They are struggling in their life with SPM + A-Level cert.

May be aku yang terawal among my friends. I was among the earliest who completed my degree, the earliest yang mula bekerja and among the earliest who tied a knot.

Menyesal? NEVER!!!

Mungkin pengalaman silam banyak mengajar aku untuk jadi lebih berani. Berani membuat keputusan, berani tanggung risiko.

When most of my friends just started their working life, I was not only stable in my position but also confidence with my decision. And masa kawan-kawan aku yang lain still busy dating with their b/f or g/f, I started my own business.

Hari demi hari, aku makin berani. Demi keluarga, demi anak-anak. Aku mahukan yang terbaik untuk mereka. Kerana RM? Yes! A lot of money needed to educate the kids. Tapi yang utama, aku lebih mencari kepuasan which in the same time, berbakti kepada masyarakat.

Itu bezanya ELEEN dengan yang lain. 1 of my buddies told me, “GOOD IN STUDY DOESN’T MEAN GOOD IN LIFE. We have seen a lot of examples, Kak Eleen.”…
Thanks for the spirit, Fhata!!!

Friday, October 10, 2008

Meeting Up the Old Buddies

I believe this year is a time for me to re-build my relationship esp with the old friends that we have lost contact for so long. Started with meeting friends from Friendster & Facebook, my journey from home to office plays an important role as well. Being around KL & PJ (even our house little bit ‘hulu’ as what people said) very often this year is one of the reasons why I met them very easily…

I met Kak Rani (Hairani Miswan), my MOZAC’s senior in ERL. We take the same ERL almost everyday and we only beranikan diri to start the conversation after a few months. Rupanya, she stay nearby my house and we all start to be closed to each other. Friends, she just exactly like before, tinggal berisi sikit jer. And she mentioned that, “Muka Eleen sama macam dulu, tak berubah pun!” She worked with Shell @ Damansara after came back from US.

In ERL as well, I met Kak Yem (Azianty), my MOZAC’s senior as well (same batch with Kak Rani). Since that, selalulah ber ‘hai-hai bye-bye’… We shared a lot of stories, gossips, advices, etc…

Another buddies that I met was Lee (bukan nama sebenar. I definitely can’t release his name due to my respect to him & his sincere friendship). Our offices dekat jer but masing2 busy with our own schedule. And guess where we met? We met in Mid Valley while I was looking so busy shopping for raya alone @ Metrojaya. Some conversation between us yang buat aku rasa bersalah sebab mendiamkan diri & sengaja lost contact with him.

Yes, I keep avoiding him for years. I appreciated his maturity sebab tak timbulkan soal siapa yang salah. His request made me think more than 10 times. Being ‘somebody’ in the education industry, known by Malaysian with his patience & spirit made me feel so humble on his KEPERCAYAAN to me. A good offer but I feel so SMALL compared to him.

I joined the education industry when I was 20 and now after 10 years of service in this beloved industry, rasa sayang sangat nak tinggalkan. I’m happy helping people to develop & educate the Malaysian esp Malays. Yes, after 10 years, people have seen my capabilities in this field. And now is the time for people looking for me. I have to be sincere with him. I need time to think & develop my spirit. Sekarang nie pun, tengah busy with all archiFORCE + GAIA Arts & Gifts works. I’ll keep that offer under KIV… Don’t worry Lee…

I met MAS (not her real name) some day during the fasting month. Memang tak sangka betul. The last time we met kalau tak silap… b4 my wedding. I know this sweet lady when we were taking computer course after SPM (it was somewhere in 1995). We started to be close from there. Lepas tu, I went to Uniten and she was in UPM taking Mass Comm. She then tried her luck in the entertainment industry as a VJ @ Salam Bollywood. With her Mami Penang face, then she acted in Anak Mami The Movie.

Why she is so special to me?  She was the one introduced me in the commercial ads line. It was back in 1996. Dialah perempuan yang buat2 sakit gigi and requested me to replace her as an emcee (I could not remember what event was that, tapi yang aku sure, I had to skip classes for 2 days for rehearsal and actual event). Why? Sebab she got another shooting masa tu…

From there I started my contact. Lepas tu, everytime ada job for emcee, she will pass it to me. Jumping from one event to another buat hidup aku makin busy since in the same time, I was still studying. But, the payment is good, dammed GOOD for 19 years old lady!!! Hahaha…

I tried my luck in commercial ads, dari situ I made my saving. RM? I managed to pay half of my degree fees @ Univ of Hertfordshire with that money a few years after that. From commercial ads, then cuba2 buat publication modeling (sebab tak cukup tinggi to be a model!!!). Lovely!!! Look good in picture!!!

MAS & me lost contact lepas she started acting in movies, etc. Busy schedules + study. I resumed from all the ‘kerja-kerja di atas’ sebab nak concentrate study and start sikit2 masa kerja with MVC. I was lucky sebab one of the make-up group people interested on me. Some projects still going on after I moved to Limkokwing.

I got to know Azimin when I was in LUCT. To be sincere, he is fine with all the things but when the relationship getting more and more serious, he asked me to screen the assignments carefully. As usual, not to wear sexy, not to hang around so often, etc…

2 weeks after my engagement, I was approached by a modeling agencies masa having tea @ Mid Valley with my friends. The next day, I went to their office and we agreed on 1 project and guess what? I SIGNED THE AGREEMENT immediately. Konon2 nak buat surprise to Azimin and some more, the project duration was just 3 months and NOT during office hours. Our wedding lagi 6 bulan (kitaorg engaged just for 6 months) and to me, that was the best time to save some RM for my wedding.

Azimin was not agreed with my decision. He gave me a choice, to proceed with this TAYANG MUKA FOR EVERYBODY or HIM. I was so stressed, geram pun ada. Masa tu tengah muda (do I look old now?) and so many things came acroos my mind. And that time, MAS came with her valuable advices. “IKUT KATA HATI and kau tak boleh jadi tamak to choose both. Whatever is it, I will respect your decision.”

The next day, MAS accompanied me to the agencies and begging them to cancel the agreement dengan cara baik, tak payah berlawyer-lawyer. We took a few hours to convience them and finally, we tore the original agreement. That was the last casting ever and aku tutup buku…

Huh!!! Until now I still keep all my portfolio and dah bertahun terperuk kat cabinet bilik Anggun. Terharu sungguh bila Azimin frame my photo masa being a covergirl for 1 international make-up magazine. Thanks Ayang!!!

Lepas dapat Anggun, Azimin suddenly became so sporting. He even asked me, “If u want to go for ads casting, pergilah.” Azimin is the one yang sibuk2 suruh aku join everytime ada competition and masa Pengacara Jemputan Nona dulu, dialah orang yang beria-ia… Until kalau ada ads for newscaster pun dia suruh aku try apply. May be he know ada talent yang terpendam. Hahahaha!!!

I’m happy with my current life. Now, aku comfortable with expressing myself with writing. I’m struggling extra hard to complete my novel. Tapi, bila time beria-ia nak menulis tu, idea pulak tak datang-datang…

To all my friends, I do appreciate the sincere friendship that built between us. THANKS GUYS!!!

Thursday, October 9, 2008

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

I would like to take this opportunity to wish all my muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri & Maaf Zahir Batin. Moga Aidilfitri kali ini memberi kita rasa kesyukuran & keinsafan dgn cara tersendiri.

This raya, our preparation boleh tahan jugaklah but the celebration memang serba serdahana. A day before raya, Azimin's aunty (Mak Ngah Saadiah) passed away @ Sg Buluh Hospital. We managed to visited her a week before raya masa on the way to Taiping.

The next day, masa pagi raya... tengah aku membebel-bebel sebab baju raya yang still tak siap2 lagi, suddenly I received a call from ayah to inform yang his uncle (my TOK CHIK) passed away before sembahyang raya. Dengan blur2 sebab memikirkan baju yang tak siap tu (I have cleared my wardrobe and sedekahkan most of the baju kurung to orang since banyak sgt baju lama yg over-sized) , I straight away capai baju kurung apa yg sempat and carik baju kurung for Anggun.

We straight away to Puchong without dropping by Ayah's house sebab Ayah & Mama pun nak ke rumah Tok Chik. Actually, setiap kali pagi raya memang semua adik-beradik ayah + the relatives (if tak balik spouse's hometown) will gather at Tok Chik's house. Pagi raya rumah Tok Chik will be crowded. This time as well but with the difference purpose.

That morning, Tok Cik was busy cooking for the food. After cooking (except the chicken), he went for shower and the maid only realized that he was still in the bathroom when they wanted to salam raya before going to sembahyang raya. The maid suspected something bila nampak air melimpah-limpah keluar dari bathroom and bila pecahkan pintu, Tok Chik dah tak ada. They are not sure samada Tok Chik terjatuh or not sebab his body tengah bersandar kat dinding masa diaorg jumpa. Jenazah Tok Chik selamat dikebumikn lepas sembahyang Asar...

Al-fatihah for both of them...

We went to Seremban (rumah mak wan, my grandma) lebih kurang pukul 1pm and reached Enstek before Maghrib. Tension jugaklah sebab we have been served the same food masa dekat Puchong (sempat lagi beraya rumah nenek sedara ku...) & Seremban, malam tu we including by brother pergi beraya kat McD.

I missed laksa johor & chocolate cake acik Ita sebab masing2 dah sibuk dengan arwah Tok Chik. Nasib baik sempat jumpa my uncles + aunties + relatives kat rumah Nek Enan. My grandma pulak buat nasi minyak on the 2nd raya which I will be @ Taiping... My grandma punya nasi minyak 1st class tau sebab pakai rempah from Terengganu. And everytime Azimin & me balik Terengganu (my parents jarang balik sana) or Azimin out-station ke sana, kitaorg memang akan dibekalkan dengan all the rempah2...

We left Enstek to Taiping on the 2nd raya, pukul 4.00am and reached Taiping about 8am (We stopped a few times sebab ngantuk!!!). At Taiping, beraya sakan la we all. Balik kampung abah kat Sg Bayor, Selama and rumah Njang (my mother in-law's sister - the only sister yang tinggal) kat Parit Buntar. The rest of the activities... pergi Tesco, Taiping Sentral, Taiping Golf Resort... Ada ker masa raya pun nak main golf... tension aku!!! After golf game, I forced Azimin to have a coffee at Starbuck (Eh! Kat Taiping Sentral dah ada Starbuck tau). Sebab aku dah tarik muka 14 inci, Azimin pun tak banyak cerita, ikut jer... memang la ikut jer, aku yang bayar!!!

Sempat singgah Doli (the famous kuew-tiow) on Saturday lepas Azimin's came back from fishing. Sunday early morning (our fav time, 4am) we left Taiping and reached Sg, Besi (rumah Mak Nah - Azimin's aunty) at 7.30am...

Nanti aku sambung lagi... I met a few old buddies with 1001 stories and approaches. And it refresh my memories until now... buat teringat zaman muda-muda... Eh! I'm not that OLD!!!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

HARI RAYA Is Just Around The Corner!!!

Selamat Hari Raya, Aidilfitri Mulia,....

I played raya song everyday @ office esp bila tension tengah siapkan report yg due datenya a day b4 i'm going for raya leave!!! Once, my staff came over and cakap "hai, layan lagu raya seorang2 dalam bilik,"... what to do...

Raya preparation is almost done. Just pending a few things... my tudung, kasut Anggun, baju abah (my father-in-law), kuih raya for mama, baju kurung aku + Anggun & baju melayu Alam (my mum still belum siapkan!!!)... eh! banyak jugak tu...

We went for shopping last Wednesday without Alam. A day b4 that (Tuesday), I went to KL (along Jln TAR) to get some raya stuffs and managed to buy a few things... Baju kurung for mak (my mother-in-law) + my maid, another extra baju kurung for me (in case my baju raya tak sempat siap... i learnt from my 30 years experiences - i can count how many times my baju raya siap - which the earliest will be malam raya). Also bought few shirts for ayah.

Went to One Utama on Wednesday to buy the shirts for Anggun + Alam + Azimin & me. After 1/2 day in OU, then we move to IKEA & IKANO. Habis semua kedai di tawaf. Managed to buy a few things for me + CROCS sandal for mak. Lepas tu, we buka puasa @ Kluang Station. Lepas buka, we went to The Curve kejap to look for Anggun shoes. She wanted to buy Adidas shoes yg macam dia tengok @ Taiping (we didn't bought it sebab tak ada size masa kat Taiping). Tak jumpa!!! From One Utama, to IKANO to The Curve. Tak jumpa padahal that is the latest design.

Thursday, since still tak puas hati shopping (I prefer to shop alone actually), I took a cab to Mid Valley after office. Went to Metrojaya and bought 2 pants + 2 shoes. Berkenan tengok 1 handbag nie (purple colour) with 50% off tapi NO!!! Nanti over-spent la pulak... Drop by @ Jusco to buy a few baju duduk rumah for Anggun + Alam. After that, lalu dekat Renoma and sempat grab 1 shirt for Azimin. Ingatkan nak berbuka dekat Jusco Cafe tapi penuh la pulak. Then, b4 taking a cab, I just spent my time to 'belated buka puasa' kat San Frans...

Friday, sempat pergi Maju Junction dengan my friend. Mulanya nak window shopping but then, terbeli la pulak 1 tudung + blouse + accesories...

Kuih raya dah complete... still wondering either to buy kuih raya for mak @ Taiping or not. Selalunya, aku beli siap dengan balang kuih sekali... tengoklah budget nanti. Just need to look for a few kerepek + kacang for mama...

We will be @ ENSTEK or Kota Seriemas on malam raya. Pagi raya, after raya @ Kota Seriemas, we will go to Puchong, Subang, etc before pergi raya to rumah mak wan @ Seremban. The 2nd raya, we going to go back to Taiping... Lama tak makan Doli, tapi Doli mesti tutup sampai lebih seminggu.

What I want to EAT masa Raya? I wish to eat rendang ayam made my mama, laksa Johor & chocolate cake(acik Ita) & nasi minyak (mak wan). Dah lama tak makan blueberry cheesecake yang my schoolmate buat (Emmy). The last time yang aku dapat order cake dia, rasanya 4 tahun sudah. After that, Emmy selalu busy and this year, she is now 7 months pregnancy...

This year we might not organise any open house. Azimin is busy completing his thesis, our shop in UKM is going to be opened after raya, etc... Azimin promised for a grand open house next year after he got DR. Insyaallah...

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

I Need A Break!!!

Argh!!! Penat... Just came back from Taiping last Sunday. It was a very short time kat Taiping. Just sempat pergi Tesco 1X, brought my in-laws to Taiping Sentral (they just opened recently... banyak jugaklah duit habis), went to Taiping bazaar ramadhan 1X. Tak sempat nak pergi bazaar ramadhan kat kamunting oe changkat jering...

Bazaar ramadhan kat sini memang murah. i still boleh dapat ayam goreng with RM 1.00. Sudahnya, aku beli, Azimin beli, my father in-law beli... penuh satu meja. Tak sempat visited Doli pun this time...

Anggun not feeling well. She muntah2 and sakit perut, even coughing. Azimin brought her to Poliklinik UKM yesterday and we even got an advise from Dr. Lokman (our dear friend in HUKM - he is a friend of Azimin and being our main contact if we need anything @ HUKM. Tak payah nak beratur panjang2... u guys know what I mean. currently, he persuing his studies majoring in cosmetic surgery)

Dr. Lokman even offered Azimin & me to do some cosmetic surgery... mak oii, takutnya. No Doc. I'm comfortable with the way I'm now. Kang lawa sangat kang, susah pulak Azimin... hahahaha

But actually yes, I'm really comfortable with the way I am now. Tak pernah terlintas langsung nak buat plastic surgery or any cosmetical surgery nie... Some of my friends pernah cakap yg 'sedut lemak' just cost around RM 2K. Masa tu, a few people dah excited. Tup tup, some of our Health Sceiences people terus sergah... "jangan nak mengada. ada org yg mati sebab buang lemak". then, case close.

A few people told me that they like my skin complexion. Thanks for the compliments... Nay be all this while i never realised about it. Teringat when i was in Limkokwing dulu, people dah start cakap about my skin complexion but i just feel its normal. yelah, masa tu i was still not yet married and rasa biasa ajer. but now, bila dah ada 2 kids nie, when people mentioned that, i feel good!!! Its not that difficult to take care of my skin (face) since i never do any facial treatment. But, my skin @ hands are very sensitive. Terlanggar pintu pun lebamnya... mak oiii... Silap haribulan, orang ingat aku kena dera...

Again aku melalut... What to do, really out of idea. Actually, I wrote it half way and save it @ draft. bila sambung, tu yg entah apa2 tu...

Friday, September 19, 2008

What The Title Supposed To Be?

Cepatnya dah hari Jumaat… Azimin just confirmed last night that we are going back to Taiping today. They are going to fetch me from office and we will drop at Sg. Buluh Hospital to visit Azimin’s aunty before heading to Taiping. Where to break fast? Dunno… I can’t think about it right now. Silap-silap, just dalam kereta jer… hehehe

My maid has arrived last Tuesday. We went to get her from Aunty Ita (the agent), which also Afiq’s mother. Who is Afiq? He is Marina’s bf. Who is Marina? She is my cousin… Actually, Afiq’s family has been closed with us for quite sometimes. Pergi rumah Aunty Ita, we not just only taking the maid but siap berbuka puasa, beli biskut raya and also dapat telekung. Food for breaking fast, mak oii… banyaknya…

We reached home quite late but still sempat to teach my maid to use some electrical appliances + some basic things on what to do. Nasib baik Azimin will be at home the next day. After a few days, she looks ok and the kids pun ok with her.

Another tiring week!!! Quite busy actually, banyak yg ad hoc things. I received a call from the editor, requested a few articles. Sampai 4 pulak tu… and 1 urgent… I still don’t have anything in mind sebab the themes are ‘in future’… Still thinking on the characters and dah start buat some research. Penat sungguh bila kena berfikir macam nie.

That’s life, writing is my soul. No matter where I go, what I do and what is my career, I still go back to write. I still remember on my first appearance in one of the magazines, I do receive a lot of emails. Rasa terharu sangat esp when people appreciate my writing.

When I was in school, banyak jugak masuk essay writing but now, writing has become more and more commercial. Started with short stories (cerpen), lifestyle articles, lyrics and currently I’m still working on my own novels… Its not just to cari makan but memang jiwaku!!! Dulu, my ex-bf pernah laughed at me, dia kata ‘jiwang’ sangat la. Aku jiwang? Azimin kata aku brutal tapi sensitive.

I have been asked by people, why I choose Azimin to be my soul-mate… Azimin is a person yang tak pernah ketawakan apa juga keinginan & kemahuan aku. When he got to know that I do freelance writing, dialah orangnya yg encourage aku buat itu & ini to get exposure, feeling etc. Quite a number of people laughed at me when I told them that I want to buy a house in front of KLCC. Ada yang kata berangan la, membazir la, etc. But Azimin is the only one yang kata GOOD. It’s a good investment.

Inagt lagi, pernah once upon a time dulu masa pergi interview with one company nie(company kecik jer tapi org2nya berlagak sungguh), one of the interviewer asked me this question: “what do you see yourself in the next 5 years?” my answer was: “I would like to have my own companies”

Guess what happened after that? They laughed at me. One of them siap peril lagi… “we asked you for the next 5 years, not next 50 years.” Kelakar sangat ker jawapan aku? Dengan ketawa diaorg la aku kerja keras sampai hari nie and today, I own 4 companies. Kelakar? I have Anggun Maya, Gaia Arts & Gifts, Rahsia Bonda & Archiforce Invent (I share Archiforce Invent with Azimin & Weeza – my sister).

My mum is helping me to run the Anggun Maya & Rahsia Bonda. I take a full charge of Gaia Arts & Gifts. I will concentrate more on Gaia next year, after Azimin completing his PhD sebab he only can go for solo exhibition after that. So far, we are still getting help from the art galleries to exhibit his art works. Raya hampers a LOT. Hope to deliver everything by early next week. Dah berapa hari tak tido malam nie….

Guys, what my post title should be? Dunno, mengarut banyak hari nie….

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Penantian Satu Penyiksaan - Con't




Penantian Satu Penyiksaan




I believe you guys understand what does it means by PENANTIAN SATU PENYIKSAAN… What I’m waiting for? I am waiting for a new maid to come. She suppose to come during the 2nd week of fasting month but its keep delaying… Jenuh la aku menunggu, bukan apa, kesian kat mama yang banyak baju nak jahit for this coming raya…

After all, we supposed to get the maid from my agent on Monday. The arrangement was:

@ Azimin will go to IKEA to exchange one of our chairs.
@ Fetch me from KLMU.
@ Going to Sunway (the agent house)

Azimin was in IKEA since tengahari… He can spend even a day in IKEA… Tambah pulak kalau bawak Anggun sama…

Around 3.30pm, I received a call from my agent to inform that the ferry was delayed due to bad weather. The maid will only arrive on Tuesday… Aduh!!! Ingatkan dah boleh settle hari tu...

Azimin fetched me from office and we have no idea where to go. Aku ajak dia pergi Mid Valley, berbuka and sambil tu, boleh cari baju raya for the kids. We went to reserve a table for buka puasa at Madam Kwan (our fav restaurant. Actually nak buka kat sushi king but then, tak boleh reserve, first come first serve).

We all singgah kat Toy’r’us after making the reservation. Anggun la manusia yang paling excited sekali although her daddy had reminded her, “TAK BOLEH BELI APA-APA”. One round, Anggun dah penang a few toys kat tangan. I just looked at her with a sign “TANYA DADDY”.

She went to find her daddy and asked him if she can buy the toys. Azimin pulak masa tu tengah sibuk kat section car model. Entah apa yang dia cari, aku pun tak sure. Anggun pun join Azimin. Tinggallah aku seorang yang tak faham apa2 pasal model2 kereta tu…

I left them at Toy’r’us and buat tour to a few shops. Masuk Jusco, tengok2 dekat tempat baju tapi satu pun tak berkenan. Then keluar Jusco, masuk MNG, singgah British India, lepas tu Topman Topshop, DP, Zara, Shu Umura and last sekali, MPH.

Lebih kurang sejam jugaklah semua tu sebab we promised to meet 6.30pm in front of Madam Kwan. Sampai sana, Azimin & Anggun were not there. I called them. Guess what??? They were still in Toy’r’us, at the same place and tengah pilih2 model kereta yang ber’remote-control’.

They settle down their things bila aku dah membebel and to show me that they were not guilty, Azimin ajak aku cari toys for Alam. Cari punya cari, we bought for Alam pistol air yang boleh pump tu… pistol air pun dekat RM 50… Gile betul… And I took 2 fireman hat for Anngun & Alam. Tak ada price tag kat situ, aku buat bodoh jer ambik. Nasib ler. Bila kat counter baru tahu yg fireman hat tu harganya RM 25 satu. Nasib la, daddynya pun beli car model dia harganya mengalahkan toys anak2 dia… belum apa2 lagi, dah sedekahkan kat toy’r’us lebih RM 200.

Terus berbuka kat Madam Kwan. As usual, my fav food, Nasi Bojari. Azimin took the lamb chop and Anggun ordered Fish & Chips. After buka puasa, Azimin sempat singgah at TAMIYA pulak to have a look lagi kat kereta2 kecik tu… Hai laki aku nie, hobinya semua mahal-mahal. Helicopter yang ber’remote’ tu ajer dah 2 kat umah.

Met a few friends yang still kerja kat Mid Valley. Dah tak ramai dah yang tinggal kat sana. We were so amazed with the artworks of Mid Valley Fit-Out Dept yang kat Centre Court tu. The rumah melayu concept is nice and really creative. Great work guys!!!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Happy Birthday MAMA...






15th Sept - birthday mama... This year, ayah bawak semua orang pergi makan but we all tak ikut sebab:

1. I was in high fever
2. Azimin dah plan to buka puasa with adik beradik dia...

at the end, aku berbuka puasa sendiri kat rumah & Azimin berbuka kat rumah Yan with Abg La & family... Sempat jugak Azimin buatkan Milo and brought a few kuih for me before dia pergi (sebelah rumah jer... macam la jauh sangat)

I bought something for mama... Actually, dah lama beli tapi simpan for her b'day... beli sekali la dengan aku punya (actually, aku punya yang lebih). masa beli nie, aku belum pun dapat my first salary kat KLMU. Masa tu tengah mega sales carnival, beli jer la...

I am the fan of ESTEE LAUDER for make-up, CLINIQUE for facial set, ELIZABETH ARDEN for perfume... (but Azimin selalu belikan HUGO BOSS punya perfume for me sebab dia suka that brand and I will look for DIOR kalau shopping kat London. the smell is different tau!)

Yang dalam beg kotak besar (gold) tu are MINE and yang lagi satu set tu + beg hitam tu untuk mama. Masa bagi kat mama tu, mama happy sangat. Weeza pun mengedeng-ngendeng la jugak....

It's So Hard To Be FRIEND?

I'm a flexible person, some goes to Azimin. He has his own friend, same do I. And we do share friends. I'm proud of my husband bila dia boleh 'masuk' dengan kawan2 aku, tak kiralah my MOZAC's friends ker, my colleagues or even my ex-bf.

Tak percaya? We proved it. Its happened during Nick's wedding, we were the one who helped him in every single things. I believe, we need to trust each other. I have no problem dengan his friends and dalam ertikata lain, aku & Azimin memang transparent to each other. We do discuss about perempuan itu, lelaki ini...

Our close friends (redz & dee) boleh provekan yg we can share the friendship together. aku pernah received a call from dee, "leen, redz changed his hp no. I left my hp @ home. do you have my husband hp no?"

I was trying to be a friend with someone for the last few weeks. I even feel comfortable talking to him tapi entahlah.... I'm not really sure on the intention.. why I said so...

After a few weeks talking & smsing, suddenly aku rasa this person macam... trying to avoid me. why? after a few weeks? seriously, i didnt see any over-react on my talking & smsing. to be frank, aku berkawan dengan semua orang. rasanya, sms yg aku hantar & aku terima sama dengan sms yang aku hantar & dapat dari jze2, jackop, asnor, redzwan, tony, lawrence, etc...

I was trying to clear-up the situation tapi bila fikir2 balik, biarlah. buat apa nak pening2kan kepala... I do discussed with Azimin about him, even showing him the sms...

eleen: do you think there is anything weird about all this sms?
azimin: nampak biasa ajer. y?
eleen: i think ada orang rasa lain kot bila i sms. salah ker? it just friend...
azimin: not everybody sama macam redz, dee, alina, kelvin, kyled, cassie, swella... may be this friend came from a different background. may be dia pun tak bagi wife dia kawan dengan lelaki and to him, bila dia kawan dengan perempuan, itu salah.
eleen: if dia rasa salah, why take more than a week to realised?
azimin: baru tersedar kot...

eleen: may be... u dont mind ker bila i ada ramai kawan2 lelaki?
azimin: (laughing)... berkawan tu hak semua orang. we know our limit, rite? i never stop you from being friend with others. kita hidup bermasyarakat and our profession need us to be professional.
eleen: (laughing)... i still ingat masa i received a call from shidah... bagitau i yg laki i pergi makan dengan perempuan kat one utama. dengan dee & alina & siapa lagi ha? semua bini orang....
azimin: yes... and masa tu pulak terserempak dengan u... tengah makan dengan slash... hahaha


yes... some memory that need to be refreshed.... and i believe, kami masih bertahan atas dasar PERCAYA. Our job requires a lot of commitments. Kalau PERCAYA tu tiada dalam our relationship, satu kerja pun tak akan jadi. and aku juga percaya pada friendship. pada aku, 'friendship' its not just a name, but its something that grow in your life. My marriage is not something that stop me dari berkawan dengan orang lain tapi menambahkan kawan.

To that person; its very upset if you got my intention wrongly. I'm not here to get you attention but its just friend. I boleh berkawan dengan siapa sahaja and it doesnt need any entry requirement. I tak tahu apa yg you rasa tapi percayalah, to me, friend is friend. No heart feeling.

To Azimin, thanks for the deep understanding. Thanks for being the one that always be by my side, thanks for always lending your shoulders & sharing all the difficulties. Thanks for willing to accept me with the ways I am... thanks for willing to take care of the kids tooo... (too busy lately, I janji, nanti I ganti balik bila u pergi out-station!!!!)

The Exhausted Week

It started from last Saturday, dragged-on till yesterday (saturday, 13th sept 08). Really exhausted... I even spent 3 days berbuka @ office. A lot of things to do, a lot of works that need more than an attention.

Thanks to Azimin for his understanding, even sometimes tu membebel jugak.... Thanks to the kids especially. They already be in bed bila aku sampai rumah. Friday, aku dah start rasa macam nak demam but still boleh tahan lagi. Saturday tu boleh siap pergi office lagi to settle a few things. Came back from office, I was really weak. I told Azimin that I'm gonna take a nap but then, around 5.30pm, Azimin woke me up.

"Lets go to see doctor. Panas sangat nie." Since kepala aku still berat lagi, I tried to convience him to wait until lepas buka puasa... We supposed to buka puasa will my brother in-law + sister in-law @ my sister in-law's house (hahaha, next door) tapi sebab aku tak larat nak jalan, Azimin & the kids ajer la yg pergi. Azimin made a cup of milo for me and brought some kuih from next door. Sungguh, tak lalu langsung nak makan....

Lepas buka puasa, we went to clinic nearby. I refused to go to Bangi, tak larat rasanya... Balik dari clinic, ingat nak terus tidur but hati aku still tak senang selagi tengok banyak kerja rumah tak settle. Senyap2, I went to the laundry room, keluarkan baju kotor, asing2 kan and then masukkan dalam laundry bag + baldi. Angkat pelahan2 pergi kat washing machine and bila bukak washing machine, ada pulak comforter yg belum berjemur...

Nak tak nak I have to call Azimin, mintak tolong angkat sebab rasa macam tak larat dah nak angkat comforter tu... And... mulalah sessi bebel-membebel... "i asked you to rest, why you still doing the laundry? go to the room now. esok2 dah baik, you nak kemas 7 hari 7 malam pun i tak kisah..." after that dia sempat sambung lagi... "esok pagi kalau tak baik jugak, i hantar u masuk hospital. biar u duduk diam2 kat sana."

Alahai laki aku... sebab tak nak mengalah, sempat la jugak aku jawab, "please book for me suite yer, i tak nak single room biasa."...

Saturday, September 6, 2008

BEST FRIEND

I believe semua orang ada best friend. I do have best friends and to me, they are among the most important people that contribute their characters in every chapter of each pages in my life.

People who know me by years might know that my life journey is not as easy as what they see HERLEENA today. I started my tough journey since I was in MOZAC. Banyak experiences, kenangan pahit manis yang buatkan aku jadi lebih kuat untuk hadapi hari2 mendatang. I went through 'zaman kejatuhan', kemuadian bangun merangkak, selepas itu berjalan dan berlari untuk mencapai apa yang aku idamkan dalam hidup ini.

Because of that, tak keterlaluan for me to mention that my best friends play a very important role in advising & lending their ears untuk sama-sama mendengar luahan hati aku.

This time, I would like to talk about my male best freinds which I have a few. Banyak bezanya lelaki dengan perempuan dalam peranan meresa as a 'best friend'. Percaya atau tidak, terserah... From my experience, yang perempuan cepat terasa hati, tak kurang juga kadang2 terselit perasaan cemburu walaupun cuma sekelumit. Rasa ingin bersaing tetap ada sebab itulah lumrah perempuan. Lelaki lebih terbuka, lebih bersedia mendengar & menerima apa sekalipun keadaannya dan selalunya memberikan pendapat yang jujur walaupun pahit untuk didengar.

Lets tak about my male best friends... Better not to mention their names sebab rasanya mereka lebih tahu siapa mereka...

Knowing A (bukan nama sebenar...) for more than 10 years make me feel comfortable to talk & express whatever I want to him. The understanding taht we have among each other buatkan aku & A rasa senang berbicara apa juga masalahnya. Dari nak memuji, mengadu, mengutuk semuanya boleh. We both sama2 giving & taking advise from each other. Pelik? Tak pada aku... Dia adalah orang kuat yang selalu ada bersama aku bila aku ditimpa masalah, tak kira berapa besar sekalipun masalah tu. He is the person yang menyumbang tenaga during my enggagement day till my wedding day. Dialah orang yang mengumpulkan kawan2, yg menjadi kepala konvoi masa hari kawin aku. Tak cukupkah itu semua untuk membuktikan yang dia sememangnya ikhlas berkawan dengan aku?

Kami saling bercerita tentang bf & gf waktu berkawan. There was 1 day, which is a few days after my wedding, I did receive a call from him. From his voice, I believe he was not in a good condition but keadaan aku masa tu tak mengizinkan untuk aku berborak panjang dengan dia. Yang sempat aku tanya, "apasal engkau nie, suara macam baru lepas break dengan gf jer?"... Guess what his answer, "memang pun, baru lepas. i just need friend to talk. Tapi kau tengah busy, tak apalah."

That was the last time I heard about his seroius relationship yang tak menjadi. after that (and I believe until now), setiap kali ditanya jawapannya begitu mudah, "malas nak fikir. Ada nanti, adalah."

Pernah ada perasaan lebih dari best friend? To be sincere, we have tried it once but rasanya it didnt work at all. Sebab tu kami teruskan as a best friend and between us, no heart feeling...

I started to know B (pun bukan nama sebenar) masa sekolah. We were not a good friend masa tu sebab pada aku dia nie poyo & perasan bagus. But sebab waktu tu, kat sekolah tu, pusing2 jumpa muka tu jugak selama 5 tahun, aku tak nafikan we could work together in a few aspects.

We started to be closed to each other after I got married. hahahaha... 1st time came over to my house during a raya open house, he was so impressed with my house design. A week after that, dia terus call us and give a job to Azimin, to design his parents house. Somemore, his sister & brother in-law were the same office with Azimin & me once upon a time... hahahaha... After that, more and more jobs came over through him and we started to be closed to each other. Not only with him, but with his family as well. We do visit each other during raya (every year) and finally he found his soulmate yang menerima dia seadanya, bukan sebab pangkat & harta yang dia ada... And thanks a lot to his wife sebab menerima kawan2 suaminya seadanya.

Actually, I do have a few more male best friends tapi yang dua inilah yang betul2 together with me in my journey of life.

I am in a process to know someone, hati & budinya sebelum aku kategorikan dia as best friend. Setakat nie, character yang ada pada dia menunjukkan dia sedia menerima aku, baik buruk aku, bebelan aku, etc...tinggal, its still too early to label him as best friend...

True friendship is like sound health, the value of it is seldom known until it is lost. - Charles Caleb Colton


A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.- Anon

Friendship is one mind in two bodies. - Mencius

Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say. - Anon

When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Metting the SKK Buddies






What a co-incident... I just checking my Facebook page and I realised about one of my old friend masa SKK. oh ya... SKK means Sekolah Kebangsaan Kajang, the school that I used to be from standard 3 to standard 6. I became Lily's friend of FB and then, terus join SKK group. then, i got to know that they were planning for a reunion on 23rd august 2008 kat sate kajang hj samuri. i decided to join them.

saturday, 23rd august 2008, i drove to kajang from my office. guess what? i met wan faris & jeya... then only jehana & johari came over... only jehana brought the camera, yg lain, hampeh!!!

even its only 5 of us, tapi memang gamat. semua dok pakat mengusik joe yg still single... joe, you have to work on it...

tak tahu mcm mana nak gambarkan happynyer kitaorg bila berkumpul, so, i believe the pics can speak louder than words...