Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Kawan Lama Part 2

Nak sambung sikit pasal kawan-kawan nie... May be I am a very sensitive person kalau masuk bab kawan-kawan lama nie. Sebab tu, walau macam mana teruk pun 'kawan' buat pada aku, aku tetap tak 'musuhkan' dia. Entahlah, one of my friends did told me for not being TOO NICE to people. Some mentioned that aku terlalu sibuk nak jaga hati orang sampai orang pijak kepala aku. Aku sedar semua tu but entahlah...

I am a person that easy to forgive but very difficult to forget... May be sebab tu, I dont mind jadi best-friend with my x-bf... (To Azimin, I believe you understand what I mean. And that is why I married you...) Tak percaya? I'm not a person yang lepas break, pulang semua barang-barang (konon tak nak ingat lagi kat orang tu), lepas tu delete nombor telefon orang tu (padahal lepas tu save balik guna nama lain, manalah tahu kot-kot dia will call back), and terus tak nak dengar langsung nama dia and apa2 yang berkait dengan dia.. No, I'm nor that type of person...

As a proof, Azimin and me did help HIM (I - bukan nama sebenar) masa dia nak kawin. Yes la, dia datang to me, and I'm in that line pulak kan. Takkan tak tolong walaupun hati tu berbuku-buku dengan si perempuannya yang too demanding tapi budget ciput... Azimin and me helped him from the baju, the pelamin, coordinate hall, sampailah function dia habis... Sikit pun tak ada rasa macam nak tolak dia sampai jatuh kat atas pelamin tu... (hahahaha)

Malam majlis dia tu, menangis-nangis emak dia peluk aku (I told Azimin after that... hahaha) mengenangkan kitaorang yang tak menjadi nie but I was still dont mind helping him with all the wedding stuff... And Azimin yang dok pasang pelamin dia, my mum yang jahit baju songket dia...

Z (bukan nama sebenar as well) pun aku tak pernah benci. Lepas break, we all still kawan. Even i was not able to attend his wedding but at least, dia datang to meet me and bagi card. We were quite close as a friend for the past few years but then lepas tu, dia missing in action lepas I changed my hp number.

Aku pun tak pernah halang Azimin if he want to keep in touch with his friends. Kita semua ada sejarah sendiri and semua itulah yang mematangkan kita bila kita mula buat pilihan. Sebab sejarah dulu-dululah yang buatkan kita mula menilai dan tahu apa yang patut dan tak patut kita buat. Sebab cerita lama-lamalah yang buat kita faham apa yang patut kita utamakan and yakin dengan apa yang kita cari & jalan yang kita pilih untuk teruskan hidup. Betul tak?

1 comment:

-zaza:o:binxz- said...

nyeh nyeh cam kenal je nehhh :op


anyway... hmm...
me hubby too is still in touch with his ex. honestly i dun really care tapi bila merajuk tu suka jadikan issue [sajer nak carik pasal, kan hahaha] but my exes all run away from me lepas tau i'm married. very d pelik, i never push em away. esp D, i think u know who. up till now am wondering wat happened to him. and he seems to make my other friends to keep it secret too. very d pelik boy.

anyway kak eleen, maya is getting married next week... am not sure i can make it or not to her wedding... masa tunang i yg mekap haha ad-hoc je!