Lama tak menulis. Awal 2016 waktu aku awal-awal dalam musim pening-pening & loya-loya, mood & idea tak sampai langsung.
Pregnancy period kali ni lain macam sikit. May be because of my age factor yang jadikan cepat letih. Ya, awal-awal dulu, selang 2 minggu kena masuk drip. Dah la masa tu belum dapat appointment schedule dengan Prof Azurah kat HUKM Specialist Centre, so berulang-aliklah ke PrimaNora TTDI.
But here, I would like to share my experience on my delivery. It's was my third delivery, third time cesarean but my first scheduled cesarean. Selama ni, for Anggun & Alam, both emergency & immediate decision.
I was admitted a night before the scheduled date. Mula-mula rasa biasa je but later @ midnight, dah start nervous. Dah mula la fikir yang macam-macam, yang bukan-bukan kata Azimin.
6th Sept 2016-
Nurse kejutkan aku dalam pukul 4.45am, inject & bagi ubat. Aku dah start puasa dari pukul 10pm malam sebelumnya. The next 1/2 an hour, aku dah siap mandi, pakai baju OT. Then ada doc datang brief us itu ini, checked all the signed forms, checked bp, contraction, baby's heartbeat. Later, my gyne, Prof Azurah datang for her final checking before we're heading to OT.
Sampai OT, our anaesthetist, Dr Nadia briefed Azimin & me on epidural things etc. Reading again & double confirm on Azimin's signature & mine. Azimin pergi tukar baju to OT uniform. It was the first experience for Azimin to go into the OT & join the delivery session. Azimin nampak releks & he tried to calm me down.
They pushed my bed into the OT, get things prepared. Looking around the OT, most of the people there; my gyne, my anaesthetist, nurses semua. Mostly perempuan (seorg je lelaki). Sempat pulak aku jeling meja yg bersusun segala jenis pisau tu. More nervous.
Dr Nadia came to me, mintak aku duduk sambil peluk bantal. She going to start injected me with the epidural before Prof Azurah start with the procedures. Painful. Its really painful. Rasa nak menitik air mata... Nasib sekali cucuk je. Then aku baring.
Suddenly aku rasa weak. Amat weak. I told Dr Nadia, "I feel so weak. Very weak." Then I saw her checking my bp.
"Your bp is drop. Im going to increase your bp. Dont worry."
Then aku rasa pening & loya. "Doc, I want to vomit." One of the nurses quickly put a stainless steel bowl next to my mouth. Then after vomiting, aku rasa lega & dah tak pening lagi. And masa tu aku nampak Azimin. He sit next to me, holding my hand thru out the procedures.
Bila aku pandang atas kat lampu, aku nampak biasan on what happened on my stomach. Sighhhh... Nampak darah errr.
After 15-20 minutes, I heard a baby crying. Aku pandang Azimin, aku tanya dia, "Is that our baby?" Azimin angguk. Azimin cakap, "She looks so fair."
The nurse bring my baby to me after they clean her up. Its really miracle. I smiled & kissed the baby & Azimin while the gyne & her team still working on my stomach. Auchhh. To seal it took longer time.
Selesai semua, they put me under observation in a room nearby the OT for around 1/2 an hour (I guess). Lepas my bp nampak ok, they pushed me back to my room with my baby.
Alhamdulillah, both baby & me were fine. And welcome to the family baby AURA ELISA ADRIANA.
I did asked Azimin apa yang dia rasa bila tengok the cesarean process. Katanya, dia just tengok the first 10 minutes je. Bila the laser start cutting my stomach, dia dah tak sanggup tengok dah. Tu yang dia datang duduk sebelah aku.
Beloved friends,
Cesarean procedure is not an easy experience. Jangan dibanding-bandingkan. Walau banyak kata-kata yang berkata, 'apa guna jadi perempuan kalau tak rasa bersalin normal' tapi kita manusia jangan sekali-kali menyangkal perancangan Ilahi. Tiada siapa yang mahu terluka dan aku percaya dengan keberanian & ilmu yang ada pada setiap gyne, mereka tahu apa yang mereka patut lakukan. Dan yang sebaik-baiknya, kita mahu semuanya selamat.
