I'm a flexible person, some goes to Azimin. He has his own friend, same do I. And we do share friends. I'm proud of my husband bila dia boleh 'masuk' dengan kawan2 aku, tak kiralah my MOZAC's friends ker, my colleagues or even my ex-bf.
Tak percaya? We proved it. Its happened during Nick's wedding, we were the one who helped him in every single things. I believe, we need to trust each other. I have no problem dengan his friends and dalam ertikata lain, aku & Azimin memang transparent to each other. We do discuss about perempuan itu, lelaki ini...
Our close friends (redz & dee) boleh provekan yg we can share the friendship together. aku pernah received a call from dee, "leen, redz changed his hp no. I left my hp @ home. do you have my husband hp no?"
I was trying to be a friend with someone for the last few weeks. I even feel comfortable talking to him tapi entahlah.... I'm not really sure on the intention.. why I said so...
After a few weeks talking & smsing, suddenly aku rasa this person macam... trying to avoid me. why? after a few weeks? seriously, i didnt see any over-react on my talking & smsing. to be frank, aku berkawan dengan semua orang. rasanya, sms yg aku hantar & aku terima sama dengan sms yang aku hantar & dapat dari jze2, jackop, asnor, redzwan, tony, lawrence, etc...
I was trying to clear-up the situation tapi bila fikir2 balik, biarlah. buat apa nak pening2kan kepala... I do discussed with Azimin about him, even showing him the sms...
eleen: do you think there is anything weird about all this sms?
azimin: nampak biasa ajer. y?
eleen: i think ada orang rasa lain kot bila i sms. salah ker? it just friend...
azimin: not everybody sama macam redz, dee, alina, kelvin, kyled, cassie, swella... may be this friend came from a different background. may be dia pun tak bagi wife dia kawan dengan lelaki and to him, bila dia kawan dengan perempuan, itu salah.
eleen: if dia rasa salah, why take more than a week to realised?
azimin: baru tersedar kot...
eleen: may be... u dont mind ker bila i ada ramai kawan2 lelaki?
azimin: (laughing)... berkawan tu hak semua orang. we know our limit, rite? i never stop you from being friend with others. kita hidup bermasyarakat and our profession need us to be professional.
eleen: (laughing)... i still ingat masa i received a call from shidah... bagitau i yg laki i pergi makan dengan perempuan kat one utama. dengan dee & alina & siapa lagi ha? semua bini orang....
azimin: yes... and masa tu pulak terserempak dengan u... tengah makan dengan slash... hahaha
yes... some memory that need to be refreshed.... and i believe, kami masih bertahan atas dasar PERCAYA. Our job requires a lot of commitments. Kalau PERCAYA tu tiada dalam our relationship, satu kerja pun tak akan jadi. and aku juga percaya pada friendship. pada aku, 'friendship' its not just a name, but its something that grow in your life. My marriage is not something that stop me dari berkawan dengan orang lain tapi menambahkan kawan.
To that person; its very upset if you got my intention wrongly. I'm not here to get you attention but its just friend. I boleh berkawan dengan siapa sahaja and it doesnt need any entry requirement. I tak tahu apa yg you rasa tapi percayalah, to me, friend is friend. No heart feeling.
To Azimin, thanks for the deep understanding. Thanks for being the one that always be by my side, thanks for always lending your shoulders & sharing all the difficulties. Thanks for willing to accept me with the ways I am... thanks for willing to take care of the kids tooo... (too busy lately, I janji, nanti I ganti balik bila u pergi out-station!!!!)
Sunday, September 14, 2008
The Exhausted Week
It started from last Saturday, dragged-on till yesterday (saturday, 13th sept 08). Really exhausted... I even spent 3 days berbuka @ office. A lot of things to do, a lot of works that need more than an attention.
Thanks to Azimin for his understanding, even sometimes tu membebel jugak.... Thanks to the kids especially. They already be in bed bila aku sampai rumah. Friday, aku dah start rasa macam nak demam but still boleh tahan lagi. Saturday tu boleh siap pergi office lagi to settle a few things. Came back from office, I was really weak. I told Azimin that I'm gonna take a nap but then, around 5.30pm, Azimin woke me up.
"Lets go to see doctor. Panas sangat nie." Since kepala aku still berat lagi, I tried to convience him to wait until lepas buka puasa... We supposed to buka puasa will my brother in-law + sister in-law @ my sister in-law's house (hahaha, next door) tapi sebab aku tak larat nak jalan, Azimin & the kids ajer la yg pergi. Azimin made a cup of milo for me and brought some kuih from next door. Sungguh, tak lalu langsung nak makan....
Lepas buka puasa, we went to clinic nearby. I refused to go to Bangi, tak larat rasanya... Balik dari clinic, ingat nak terus tidur but hati aku still tak senang selagi tengok banyak kerja rumah tak settle. Senyap2, I went to the laundry room, keluarkan baju kotor, asing2 kan and then masukkan dalam laundry bag + baldi. Angkat pelahan2 pergi kat washing machine and bila bukak washing machine, ada pulak comforter yg belum berjemur...
Nak tak nak I have to call Azimin, mintak tolong angkat sebab rasa macam tak larat dah nak angkat comforter tu... And... mulalah sessi bebel-membebel... "i asked you to rest, why you still doing the laundry? go to the room now. esok2 dah baik, you nak kemas 7 hari 7 malam pun i tak kisah..." after that dia sempat sambung lagi... "esok pagi kalau tak baik jugak, i hantar u masuk hospital. biar u duduk diam2 kat sana."
Alahai laki aku... sebab tak nak mengalah, sempat la jugak aku jawab, "please book for me suite yer, i tak nak single room biasa."...
Thanks to Azimin for his understanding, even sometimes tu membebel jugak.... Thanks to the kids especially. They already be in bed bila aku sampai rumah. Friday, aku dah start rasa macam nak demam but still boleh tahan lagi. Saturday tu boleh siap pergi office lagi to settle a few things. Came back from office, I was really weak. I told Azimin that I'm gonna take a nap but then, around 5.30pm, Azimin woke me up.
"Lets go to see doctor. Panas sangat nie." Since kepala aku still berat lagi, I tried to convience him to wait until lepas buka puasa... We supposed to buka puasa will my brother in-law + sister in-law @ my sister in-law's house (hahaha, next door) tapi sebab aku tak larat nak jalan, Azimin & the kids ajer la yg pergi. Azimin made a cup of milo for me and brought some kuih from next door. Sungguh, tak lalu langsung nak makan....
Lepas buka puasa, we went to clinic nearby. I refused to go to Bangi, tak larat rasanya... Balik dari clinic, ingat nak terus tidur but hati aku still tak senang selagi tengok banyak kerja rumah tak settle. Senyap2, I went to the laundry room, keluarkan baju kotor, asing2 kan and then masukkan dalam laundry bag + baldi. Angkat pelahan2 pergi kat washing machine and bila bukak washing machine, ada pulak comforter yg belum berjemur...
Nak tak nak I have to call Azimin, mintak tolong angkat sebab rasa macam tak larat dah nak angkat comforter tu... And... mulalah sessi bebel-membebel... "i asked you to rest, why you still doing the laundry? go to the room now. esok2 dah baik, you nak kemas 7 hari 7 malam pun i tak kisah..." after that dia sempat sambung lagi... "esok pagi kalau tak baik jugak, i hantar u masuk hospital. biar u duduk diam2 kat sana."
Alahai laki aku... sebab tak nak mengalah, sempat la jugak aku jawab, "please book for me suite yer, i tak nak single room biasa."...
Saturday, September 6, 2008
BEST FRIEND
I believe semua orang ada best friend. I do have best friends and to me, they are among the most important people that contribute their characters in every chapter of each pages in my life.
People who know me by years might know that my life journey is not as easy as what they see HERLEENA today. I started my tough journey since I was in MOZAC. Banyak experiences, kenangan pahit manis yang buatkan aku jadi lebih kuat untuk hadapi hari2 mendatang. I went through 'zaman kejatuhan', kemuadian bangun merangkak, selepas itu berjalan dan berlari untuk mencapai apa yang aku idamkan dalam hidup ini.
Because of that, tak keterlaluan for me to mention that my best friends play a very important role in advising & lending their ears untuk sama-sama mendengar luahan hati aku.
This time, I would like to talk about my male best freinds which I have a few. Banyak bezanya lelaki dengan perempuan dalam peranan meresa as a 'best friend'. Percaya atau tidak, terserah... From my experience, yang perempuan cepat terasa hati, tak kurang juga kadang2 terselit perasaan cemburu walaupun cuma sekelumit. Rasa ingin bersaing tetap ada sebab itulah lumrah perempuan. Lelaki lebih terbuka, lebih bersedia mendengar & menerima apa sekalipun keadaannya dan selalunya memberikan pendapat yang jujur walaupun pahit untuk didengar.
Lets tak about my male best friends... Better not to mention their names sebab rasanya mereka lebih tahu siapa mereka...
Knowing A (bukan nama sebenar...) for more than 10 years make me feel comfortable to talk & express whatever I want to him. The understanding taht we have among each other buatkan aku & A rasa senang berbicara apa juga masalahnya. Dari nak memuji, mengadu, mengutuk semuanya boleh. We both sama2 giving & taking advise from each other. Pelik? Tak pada aku... Dia adalah orang kuat yang selalu ada bersama aku bila aku ditimpa masalah, tak kira berapa besar sekalipun masalah tu. He is the person yang menyumbang tenaga during my enggagement day till my wedding day. Dialah orang yang mengumpulkan kawan2, yg menjadi kepala konvoi masa hari kawin aku. Tak cukupkah itu semua untuk membuktikan yang dia sememangnya ikhlas berkawan dengan aku?
Kami saling bercerita tentang bf & gf waktu berkawan. There was 1 day, which is a few days after my wedding, I did receive a call from him. From his voice, I believe he was not in a good condition but keadaan aku masa tu tak mengizinkan untuk aku berborak panjang dengan dia. Yang sempat aku tanya, "apasal engkau nie, suara macam baru lepas break dengan gf jer?"... Guess what his answer, "memang pun, baru lepas. i just need friend to talk. Tapi kau tengah busy, tak apalah."
That was the last time I heard about his seroius relationship yang tak menjadi. after that (and I believe until now), setiap kali ditanya jawapannya begitu mudah, "malas nak fikir. Ada nanti, adalah."
Pernah ada perasaan lebih dari best friend? To be sincere, we have tried it once but rasanya it didnt work at all. Sebab tu kami teruskan as a best friend and between us, no heart feeling...
I started to know B (pun bukan nama sebenar) masa sekolah. We were not a good friend masa tu sebab pada aku dia nie poyo & perasan bagus. But sebab waktu tu, kat sekolah tu, pusing2 jumpa muka tu jugak selama 5 tahun, aku tak nafikan we could work together in a few aspects.
We started to be closed to each other after I got married. hahahaha... 1st time came over to my house during a raya open house, he was so impressed with my house design. A week after that, dia terus call us and give a job to Azimin, to design his parents house. Somemore, his sister & brother in-law were the same office with Azimin & me once upon a time... hahahaha... After that, more and more jobs came over through him and we started to be closed to each other. Not only with him, but with his family as well. We do visit each other during raya (every year) and finally he found his soulmate yang menerima dia seadanya, bukan sebab pangkat & harta yang dia ada... And thanks a lot to his wife sebab menerima kawan2 suaminya seadanya.
Actually, I do have a few more male best friends tapi yang dua inilah yang betul2 together with me in my journey of life.
I am in a process to know someone, hati & budinya sebelum aku kategorikan dia as best friend. Setakat nie, character yang ada pada dia menunjukkan dia sedia menerima aku, baik buruk aku, bebelan aku, etc...tinggal, its still too early to label him as best friend...
True friendship is like sound health, the value of it is seldom known until it is lost. - Charles Caleb Colton
A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.- Anon
Friendship is one mind in two bodies. - Mencius
Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say. - Anon
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
People who know me by years might know that my life journey is not as easy as what they see HERLEENA today. I started my tough journey since I was in MOZAC. Banyak experiences, kenangan pahit manis yang buatkan aku jadi lebih kuat untuk hadapi hari2 mendatang. I went through 'zaman kejatuhan', kemuadian bangun merangkak, selepas itu berjalan dan berlari untuk mencapai apa yang aku idamkan dalam hidup ini.
Because of that, tak keterlaluan for me to mention that my best friends play a very important role in advising & lending their ears untuk sama-sama mendengar luahan hati aku.
This time, I would like to talk about my male best freinds which I have a few. Banyak bezanya lelaki dengan perempuan dalam peranan meresa as a 'best friend'. Percaya atau tidak, terserah... From my experience, yang perempuan cepat terasa hati, tak kurang juga kadang2 terselit perasaan cemburu walaupun cuma sekelumit. Rasa ingin bersaing tetap ada sebab itulah lumrah perempuan. Lelaki lebih terbuka, lebih bersedia mendengar & menerima apa sekalipun keadaannya dan selalunya memberikan pendapat yang jujur walaupun pahit untuk didengar.
Lets tak about my male best friends... Better not to mention their names sebab rasanya mereka lebih tahu siapa mereka...
Knowing A (bukan nama sebenar...) for more than 10 years make me feel comfortable to talk & express whatever I want to him. The understanding taht we have among each other buatkan aku & A rasa senang berbicara apa juga masalahnya. Dari nak memuji, mengadu, mengutuk semuanya boleh. We both sama2 giving & taking advise from each other. Pelik? Tak pada aku... Dia adalah orang kuat yang selalu ada bersama aku bila aku ditimpa masalah, tak kira berapa besar sekalipun masalah tu. He is the person yang menyumbang tenaga during my enggagement day till my wedding day. Dialah orang yang mengumpulkan kawan2, yg menjadi kepala konvoi masa hari kawin aku. Tak cukupkah itu semua untuk membuktikan yang dia sememangnya ikhlas berkawan dengan aku?
Kami saling bercerita tentang bf & gf waktu berkawan. There was 1 day, which is a few days after my wedding, I did receive a call from him. From his voice, I believe he was not in a good condition but keadaan aku masa tu tak mengizinkan untuk aku berborak panjang dengan dia. Yang sempat aku tanya, "apasal engkau nie, suara macam baru lepas break dengan gf jer?"... Guess what his answer, "memang pun, baru lepas. i just need friend to talk. Tapi kau tengah busy, tak apalah."
That was the last time I heard about his seroius relationship yang tak menjadi. after that (and I believe until now), setiap kali ditanya jawapannya begitu mudah, "malas nak fikir. Ada nanti, adalah."
Pernah ada perasaan lebih dari best friend? To be sincere, we have tried it once but rasanya it didnt work at all. Sebab tu kami teruskan as a best friend and between us, no heart feeling...
I started to know B (pun bukan nama sebenar) masa sekolah. We were not a good friend masa tu sebab pada aku dia nie poyo & perasan bagus. But sebab waktu tu, kat sekolah tu, pusing2 jumpa muka tu jugak selama 5 tahun, aku tak nafikan we could work together in a few aspects.
We started to be closed to each other after I got married. hahahaha... 1st time came over to my house during a raya open house, he was so impressed with my house design. A week after that, dia terus call us and give a job to Azimin, to design his parents house. Somemore, his sister & brother in-law were the same office with Azimin & me once upon a time... hahahaha... After that, more and more jobs came over through him and we started to be closed to each other. Not only with him, but with his family as well. We do visit each other during raya (every year) and finally he found his soulmate yang menerima dia seadanya, bukan sebab pangkat & harta yang dia ada... And thanks a lot to his wife sebab menerima kawan2 suaminya seadanya.
Actually, I do have a few more male best friends tapi yang dua inilah yang betul2 together with me in my journey of life.
I am in a process to know someone, hati & budinya sebelum aku kategorikan dia as best friend. Setakat nie, character yang ada pada dia menunjukkan dia sedia menerima aku, baik buruk aku, bebelan aku, etc...tinggal, its still too early to label him as best friend...
True friendship is like sound health, the value of it is seldom known until it is lost. - Charles Caleb Colton
A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.- Anon
Friendship is one mind in two bodies. - Mencius
Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say. - Anon
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Metting the SKK Buddies
What a co-incident... I just checking my Facebook page and I realised about one of my old friend masa SKK. oh ya... SKK means Sekolah Kebangsaan Kajang, the school that I used to be from standard 3 to standard 6. I became Lily's friend of FB and then, terus join SKK group. then, i got to know that they were planning for a reunion on 23rd august 2008 kat sate kajang hj samuri. i decided to join them.
saturday, 23rd august 2008, i drove to kajang from my office. guess what? i met wan faris & jeya... then only jehana & johari came over... only jehana brought the camera, yg lain, hampeh!!!
even its only 5 of us, tapi memang gamat. semua dok pakat mengusik joe yg still single... joe, you have to work on it...
tak tahu mcm mana nak gambarkan happynyer kitaorg bila berkumpul, so, i believe the pics can speak louder than words...
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